2009, The Year of Change – And it’s only half over.

Posted by admin on June 9th, 2009 filed in Beren, Carnival, Dealing with loss, General, Moving, Pennsic, Summer, Vacation

Each summer, we have a lot to do.  The weekends fill up with social events and vacations months in advance.  We don’t have many plans yet this year.  Too many things have changed in our lives.

In numerology, the number 9 represents the highest level of change.  It’s the turning point from single digits to doubles.  This is the 9th year of our relationship, and it’s 2009, and it’s been the year of change.

If you’ve been reading my blog long, you know I lost two very important people in the last 5 months, my father and my cousin.  It’s affected me deeply.  How many summer customs revolved around being with those two?  Without them summer will never be the same.

The volunteer fire department near where my dad moved in his final years had a street fair every year since before I was born.  Since my aunt and other family members live there, I have gone to this carnival for as long as I can remember.  I can recall doing chores for my aunt with my siblings and cousin during the days of our summer vacations so she would give us rolls of quarters to spend at the carnival at night.  The fire department isn’t having the carnival this year, and I feel the loss.  It is something I would have taken the kids to and enjoyed with my father.  Here he is a year and two days ago, when he took Beren for his first merry-go-round ride:


Beren is in the orange shirt on the horse and Dad’s to the right of him.  Oh how I wish I’d brought my normal camera and not my low quality camera phone!  Shortly after this, we all sat on a curb for the fireworks.  That night, my niece, Lily, sat in Dad’s lap for the first fireworks she ever saw.

My uncle and aunt have invited us to their house in Maryland every year for decades.  This year the house is being rented out for the summer, so we will not be going.  Going to Maryland has been a staple of my summers.  It just never really felt like summer until we went.  There have been years in my adult life when I haven’t been able to go, but it was still nice to know what my entire family was getting together there for three weeks.  I feel very sad that we’ll be missing that time together this year.

Ever since the first year Aloysius took us to Pennsic, Bert and I knew it would be part of our lives.  We have only missed one Pennsic since then.  We have decided against going this year.  I just don’t know how we would manage having a 2 year old and a newborn in the woods for 2 weeks.  It isn’t financially sensible for us to go this time either.  We have a lot of expenses coming up and I’m not working right now.  We feel like we’d be spending a lot of money and we wouldn’t have the experience we want.

We have had some good changes this year too.  I am no longer pregnant and long-awaited Magdalena arrived.  We just love her so much.  For a baby who was conceived, gestated, and born in such chaotic times, she’s a pretty complacent and easy-going baby.  We’re so happy to have her and our lives will never be the same.

After living here for nearly 3 years, we will be moving soon.  It’s not by choice, but I do hope this change will end up being better for our family in the long run.  I don’t have many updates on the house.  We’re filling in the sales agreement now and we’ll be ordering the inspections that need to be done.  I hope everything looks good and that this house is the one.  I also hope we can move very soon.

I’ve noticed our priorities changing too.  5 years ago, we were only worried about going to school and work, playing D&D, watching movies, and ordering a lot of take out.  Now I read pregnancy and parenting books, we are looking for stability and a new house, we spend a lot of mental and physical energy taking care of the kids, and we’ve seriously reformed our eating habits.  We’re really at a different point in our lives.  I fear “mom jeans” are going to be next for me.  I wonder what the rest of this year will hold and just how much more change I can adjust to.

3 Responses to “2009, The Year of Change – And it’s only half over.”

  1. Aloysius Says:

    Megan, I’m feeling it too! My “year of change” actually started last February, when I got a new job. Family members have been lost, and new ones are being added. I just got a new house. It just doesn’t feel like summer without Maryland, and it will be strange without you guys at Pennsic.

    I hope things start settling down. Maybe we’ll get to go to Maryland in the fall, when it isn’t so hot, and the crabs are bigger. That’ll be strange, but good. And maybe we can play D&D again soon.

  2. admin Says:

    I hope we can play D&D again soon! I miss it! It feels like all these new things have put so much of who I am on hold.

    I would like to go to Maryland in the fall too. We went once in the fall while I was in high school. The temperature was really nice and there were so many migrating water fowl! It was really something.

  3. jo Says:

    I hope the second half of the year brings some closure and rest.

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